What happens when life stops....

I'm starring at the glow of my miraculously bright cell phone light (I really need to lower that) check the time once again... it currently reads 5:45 A.M. If this were a normal day I would be getting ready for a 9+ hour day of work, running from room to room trying to figure out schedules and where the doctors go. This day is different. This day is the day that I have to change my identity from a hard working independent women to a... stay at home mom. Now before I hear all the yells and cries and how being a stay at home mom is the hardest job. (Trust me I know) I need to explain a few things.

1. I never thought I would get married.. Well it's been 108 days since I've said I Do.
2. I never wanted kids... My husband has a 6 year old munchkin who I adore.
3. My job was my life.

Lets go back to #3. My job was my life.. I did not work to live.. I lived to work. How can someone who is constantly going and multitasking change their life? It feels that there was a complete halt in my life.
My mother raised me to believe in taking care of yourself, doing things for you, and never letting someone control your life. To say the least we were raised to be very independent females.

So I start on this journey of being in charge of a schedule for a little one, taking care of what to do and where we go and whats for lunch. I've also never looked forward towards bed time so much in my life.

I guess the real question is, am I doing the right thing? Am I doing whats best for my family? For my relationship with my husband? And our daughter? I'm not sure of the answer yet. But I feel like I'm in the right direction. I know there will bumps along the way and things may not be going how I want them.. but I guess in the end as long as their alive happy, healthy and you still hear I love you at the end of the night. I'm doing something right.